Anxiety and Christmas

Sooo.. I've been having some serious writers block the last little while . Its been driving me nuts. I geuss its just part of the chaos of my life . Im mean 5 kids multiple things to do that don't include your bills ect. And then theres the sometimes debilitating side effects of depression and anxiety .

Truthfully  winter break didn't help that much .Not that I didn't know anyone at the Christmas dinners and things . It's more  the amount of people and/or noise . Theres a certaim point my body just wants everything to stop .(its usually between 9-10) You know that point where the kids are supposed to be in bed but have to go pee because they just drank their third glass of water , because they're trying not to go to bed .

I mean don't get me wrong Christmas was great ! We saw people the kids got TONS  of gifts . We all had fun and Aiden and I even got to spend New Years child free 😮
at his moms . I just like small get togethers  thats all.😝

All in all Christmas break was pretty great a little over whelming at times but  awsome . The most important part is the kids had fun .. which minus having to help clean their rooms and things I really think they did .

A Day of Fun

  Hi so about three years ago near the end of summer ,we as a family decided to go to Marine Land . It was when all the protesters were supposed to be there destroying everyone's fun because of "animal abuse " which isn't a quote thing it's a serious issue and if it's going on it needs to stop but that another post .For now back to this post .Because of all the bad publicity Marine Land was getting we got a few pretty mean comments and concerns .We went anyways .We figured he's almost three ,he doesn't understand politics and things and he begged to go ALL summer . I loved this day. He was amazed by it all and had a fit when he couldn't ride on Dragon Mountain . It was magical ,even for me . He also willingly without help from family and friends let me take pictures .He never lets me do that .The good pictures I snuck up on him or he told me to take a picture . For what ever reason he will not let ME and only ME take his picture unless he says it's okay . He has also not let other family members take pictures . The only ones we've had 0 tantrums with are school pictures and the ones from sears when he was a baby . I mostly love this day because there was no fighting over picture taking ,No worries or tantrums (until home time ) but he fell asleep shortly after.   It was just pure fun and excitement .It was one of very few days he looked at the camera and smiled a real smile with out giving me permission.