Anxiety and Christmas

Sooo.. I've been having some serious writers block the last little while . Its been driving me nuts. I geuss its just part of the chaos of my life . Im mean 5 kids multiple things to do that don't include your bills ect. And then theres the sometimes debilitating side effects of depression and anxiety .

Truthfully  winter break didn't help that much .Not that I didn't know anyone at the Christmas dinners and things . It's more  the amount of people and/or noise . Theres a certaim point my body just wants everything to stop .(its usually between 9-10) You know that point where the kids are supposed to be in bed but have to go pee because they just drank their third glass of water , because they're trying not to go to bed .

I mean don't get me wrong Christmas was great ! We saw people the kids got TONS  of gifts . We all had fun and Aiden and I even got to spend New Years child free 😮
at his moms . I just like small get togethers  thats all.😝

All in all Christmas break was pretty great a little over whelming at times but  awsome . The most important part is the kids had fun .. which minus having to help clean their rooms and things I really think they did .

A year later ...

Hi, so I haven't been on in almost two years because well my life has been chaos .

And heres why:

After big Dan went to the hospital ,he ended up in heart surgery and then a coma . Dan Wayne Clark Sr. Died March 22, 2015

So away we ( his mother and I) went planning a funeral and burrying the father of my children .

Fast forward to the end of August 2015 the bank sells the house we are renting and we end up living with my mother until the new year  when we finally find a house . I live here with my children from January 1st until March 21 2016 , when once again my life was turned upside down .

Our social worker decided that my children needed to be removed from their home. For to this day unexplained reasons . We've been to a few court dates and and have 2 children home perminantly. We have visits with the other 3 for now . We are hoping to have everyone home for christmas. Oh yea luckily my children are staying with my mother through all of this .

Okay so now you are probably wondering who we actually is . His names Aiden , and well we are engaged .I know it seems fast for some but its not . We've been friends for years, and liked each ither , just never said anything .Its a really cute long story that I'll get into at another time .We will be getting married 100% on Saturday April 14, 2018.Our wedding theme is Batman and We are All  beyond excited .

Halloween 2016

So halloween 2016went alright we had the kids halloween parade the twins and jaxx had a Halloween party at their daycare .After we picked the kids up we went out trick or treating . They got a decent amount of candy we went around my parents house  and my fiances moms and grandmas  houses .We had a combination of super heros including :

The Hulk
2 Batmen
A cat
and Supergirl

the kids had a blast ,but if there is one thing I did notice it is that Halloween is no where close to what it used to be .When I was a kid you walked everywhere and got at least one pillowcase of candy per child  .AT LEAST! This year my kids maybe got a pillowcase worth combined .Thats five kids and one pillowcase .thats insane .What else gets me is what ever happened to UNICEF? You know the little orange boxes that mom would tie around your neck to collect all your neighbours pennies they collected the entire year literally just for Halloween .What happened to it .When did we become so greety that we can't even help collect money for things unless it benifits us or our children ?

Almost Two years later

Hi, so I haven't been on in almost two years because well my life has been chaos .

And heres why:

After big Dan went to the hospital ,he ended up in heart surgery and then a coma . Dan Wayne Clark Sr. Died March 22, 2015

So away we ( his mother and I) went planning a funeral and burrying the father of my children .

Fast forward to the end of August 2015 the bank sells the house we are renting and we end up living with my mother until the new year  when we finally find a house . I live here with my children from January 1st until March 21 2016 , when once again my life was turned upside down .

Our social worker decided that my children needed to be removed from their home. For to this day unexplained reasons . We've been to a few court dates and and have 2 children home perminantly. We have visits with the other 3 for now . We are hoping to have everyone home for christmas. Oh yea luckily my children are staying with my mother through all of this .

Okay so now you are probably wondering who we actually is . His names Aiden , and well we are engaged .I know it seems fast for some but its not . We've been friends for years, and liked each ither , just never said anything .Its a really cute long story that I'll get into at another time .We will be getting married 100% on Saturday April 14, 2018.Our wedding theme is Batman and We are All  beyond excited .

holy shopping trip

Okay so the last few days my brains been a jumbled mess of everything..the only time I get to try and think straight right now is when they are in bed..With big D in the hospital things have just been go go go and I've been trying to just keep busy with thing anything I went grocery shopping like crazy today.. haven't shopped like that in a long time it was exhausting.  

BLAH!!!

Hi so today and last night sucked Big Dans in the hospital don't really know whats happening there .. Our social worker showed up this morning and yea . Other then that my father-in-law is heading up there now to hook Big Dans phone up so we have some sort of communication. And I'm just playing this thing day by day . not sure how aware the kids are of the whole thing  I just told them that daddy was sick and had to stay with doctors for a while .

the deal with Water nails

So in my opinion the water nails didn't work. Most likely because I don't have long enough nails. I feel it would work better if I could ever grow nails which will never happen. Seriously been trying to grow my nails for years.

Verdict :unless you have serious nails stick to painting your nails the usual way